Jun. 26th, 2008

desertions: (All I Wanted Was You)
Hey there, sudden mood deflation.

I wish I could just stop this sort of thinking. I wish...I wish...I don't even know. I feel so fucking defeating sometimes.

I hate that things are so tense between us now. I wish I could make her happy. I hate how disappointed she seems at me about everything now. I can't help but feel like I'm letting people down again. I just..I want to make everyone happy. But I want to be happy too. And the two seem to be mutually exclusive.

I just...I can't help but feel like if I done more, been better, or more something I don't know. Things would be better, somehow. Everything's that wrong just seems like it's my fault even though logically, I know it's not.

There's just...I don't even know. I wish I could articulate how this all feels so I could make it make sense.

I wish I could feel logically.
desertions: (Mommy's Here)
...Mood is even worse today
The last group session today just made me think of too much I've been trying not to think about.

Meh. Distraction time is go, me thinks.

Profile

desertions: (Default)
Katiepants

July 2017

S M T W T F S
      1
2345678
9101112131415
16171819202122
2324 2526272829
3031     

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Jul. 26th, 2017 12:42 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios