Jul. 8th, 2008

desertions: (I'm So Tired I Can't Sleep)
Considering all the goddamn family drama the past week or so, I guess it makes sense that crap feeling just hit me all at once. At least I was firm about my aunt not dumping Danica's creepy ass crazy husband on us, even for a night. I know it must suck because he discharged himself against medical advice, and the hospital he was at is closer to our house than theirs, but he have kids here. Not to mention, seriously, he creeps me out. Like, if he slept here for even a night, I would probably have my door locked all night scared. He really freaks me out.

It probably doesn't help that aside from about about three people, none of my friends im or talk to me half the time unless I initiate things first. And even then, I get half assesed, inattentive conversation. Which makes me just wonder if people don't want to deal with me. I don't blame them. I don't want to deal with me. And I'm probably just being paranoid, but I dunno, I see people off and having fun with everyone else, and I wonder if maybe I'm just not fun anymore, or something. I guess I do complain alot. And hurr, now I'm complaining about complaining. This has just become epically emotionally retarded.

It also dawned on me that it's been almost three years now. Just a couple of weeks until that anniversary comes up. I'm not looking forward to that, really.

I hate when I get these shit feelings late at night when everyone's gone to bed. Not that I would of talked to anyone anyways, but it's nice to think I could, I guess.


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