Jul. 11th, 2008

desertions: (I DID MY BEST XO)
Two panic attacks in one day? Not cool.
It took two ativan and alot of breathing excerises for that second to calm down.
But now I just feel warn and ready to cry.
Sometimes, it seems like my own chemistry is against me, and it's frustrating.

I did my final today, I hope I did okay on it. I just...I keep living in the fear that UCR will change their mind and decide I can't come after all. That maybe I did fuck things up too much this time. It really scares me, and even though I can rationally tell myself it probably won't happen, it doesn't seem to help.
desertions: (Get back in the firey water!)
The people from my outpatient program fail
First, they show up on two days I'm not supposed to go (Tuesday and Thursday)
Then they don't show up on the day I am supposed to go (Wednesday)
And then today they show up super early and don't even give me enough time to get out there before they leave. They didn't even call me like they usually do if the bus is waiting for me.

Which basically means once again this week, I woke up for nothing.

So much fail :|
desertions: (Bastard Coated Bastards With Bastard Fil)
Silly me, thinking I need to feel safe in my own home.

What was I thinking?

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