I Feel Like Something's Going To Give...

[desertions]

I was looking through some of my old poems and stuff and I couldn't help but notice how many I added notes like "this is metaphorical, I would never really kill myself"
And at the time I beilived it to be true
Where I was at the time was alot calmer, even if it didn't feel like it at the time
My grandfather dying was what sent the chain of events that led to my attempt
I just found it odd that I was so sure I would never get that desprete
Goes to show you that you can never be too sure of anything really

Speaking of depression and stuff for the most part I think I've been doing better lately. Perhaps it's because I have more friends and I've been getting out and doing stuff.

It's also now been three monthes since I last cut. It's been as hard as hell, but I've made it through. I'm quite proud of myself really

In other news...
Judgement day is coming!
Well, sorta...
Tommorow my grandma is coming into my theraphy session so we can discuss the whole "I want to date a 19 year old" issue. We shall see what happens there. It could be good. It could be bad. It could be disastrous. One never knows, does one?

Ugh...my stupid headache has come back with a vengence...