Thought We'd Be On Fire Together But I Was Sadly Mistaken....

[desertions]

Today was a long day
I slept horribly, woke up around noon, didn't feel rested at all
I didn't want to get up at all, I just wanted to mope, but as I hadn't told anyone about it yet, I got up
Of course, shortly afterwards my grandma overheard me talking to Rachel and figured out what happened
My uncle offered to shoot or run over him for me, but I declined
I just kinda shuffled through the house, got dressed and went to pick up my glasses (Yes, I found out yesterday that I am in fact nearsighted. Will get pictures of me with glasses ASAP)
Then I came home and lied around alot, occasionally going online and chatting with people, and calling people up
I'm going to Rachel's to sleep over tommorow, and then this weekend I'm sleeping over at Meagen's
At least I'm keeping busy...
There are even a couple of seconds where I don't think of him...
Of course, I can't even have a conversation about Mitchell, I mean a serious one about the breakup, without beginning to choke up and/or cry
And everything reminds me of him
I guess this is how heartbreak feels
See, this is why I never wanted to get involved in the first place...
I hate loss, and I knew eventually, it would end, and I'd be alone again
Of course, part of me hoped otherwise..

Song Of The Entry

Simple Together by Alanis Morrisette
You’ve been my golden best friend
Now with post-demise at hand
Can’t go to you for consolation
Cause we’re off limits during this transition

This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
And I can’t stop bumping into things

I thought we’d be simple together
I thought we’d be happy together
Thought we’d be limitless together
I thought we’d be precious together
But I was sadly mistaken

You’ve been my soulmate and mentor
I remembered you the moment I met you
With you I knew god’s face was handsome
With you I suffered an expansion

This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And I can’t stop dropping everything

I thought we’d be sexy together
Thought we’d be evolving together
I thought we’d have children together
I thought we’d be family together
But I was sadly mistaken

If I had a bill for all the philosophies I shared
If I had a penny for all the possibilities I presented
If I had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
My wealth would render this no less severe

I thought we’d be genius together
I thought we’d be healing together
I thought we’d be growing together
Thought we’d be adventurous together
But I was sadly mistaken

Thought we’d be exploring together
Thought we’d be inspired together
I thought we’d be flying together
Thought we’d be on fire together
But I was sadly mistaken

God this fits how I feel right now...
Alanis and Tori have been keeping me alot of company today....