I Could Fix Alot Of Things, But I'd Rather Not Get Into That

[desertions]

I BOUGHT THE SECOND JACK OFF JILL CD TODAY

That's right bitches, I found it at The Music Exchange (where I found their other cd, Sexless Demons and Scars) and bought the cd I've been coveting for a very long time, Clear Hearts, Grey Flowers
And that was like, the only good point of today, sadly enough

My mom's place got busted into
One of her friends got raped, and she had to protect another girl from getting raped
So yeah, we need to find another place for her, cause we don't think it's safe there anymore
And of course this has made my mom into more of an emotional wreck then ever

There's other stuff bothering me, stuff I don't really want to get into specfically, but a few people know of it
But I've decided, I want to get out into the dating circle again, but not really sure how to go about it
To be honest, I don't know many guys, most of the ones I do know are dating people, and I'm not very good at meeting them
So...anyone want to set me up? C'mon Lisa, I bet Gilb has single friends >>;;;

I'm not really looking for a serious relationship, I'd just like someone I can hang out with and have a good time
Maybe make out some, talk, you know, good stuff
I mean, I'm 17, expecting much more is retarded, if only I had realized this earlier
Ah well, you win some you loose some

Of course I may never be allowed out of the house when my grandma finds out my grade for World Lit Honors...
I'm failing the fucking class, it's so messed up
I mean it's an english class, I should be acing it
But Dr. Deocampo is so particular about everything
And you know me, I hate comforming my style

Or maybe I've hit my prime, and my brain is slowly slipping away
I feel like that alot lately
Maybe not on an educational level, but in other ways
Not as bad as I was last year, when I heard voices and stuff...
Or cutting up my body over everything, or even anything
But I'm so afraid that I'm on that road again

And I have no way to fix it, or end it

It's like a 404 error in my mind
Blue screen of mental death

And on a last note, Election Day!
If I could vote, I would
Those who can, do so
If not for yourself, then for the pouty 17 year old known as Teh Katie

Sleep...?
Maybe somewhere in the near future
After I get some thoughts figured out, maybe I'll do a filtered post later about them
There's just certain people I don't want reading them

Song of the Entry:

The Perfect Fit by The Dresden Dolls

I could make a dress
A robe fit for a prince
I could clothe a continent
But I can't sew a stitch

I can paint my face
And stand very very still
It’s not very practical
But it still pays the bills

I can't change my name
But I could be your type
I can dance and win at games
Like backgammon and life

I used to be the smart one
Sharp as a tack
Funny how that skipping years ahead
Has held me back

I used to be the bright one
Top in my class
Funny what they give you when you
Just learn how to ask

I can write a song
But I can’t sing in key
I can play piano
But I never learned to read

I can't trap a mouse
But I can pet a cat
No I’m really serious!
I'm really very good at that

I can't fix a car
But I can fix a flat
I could fix a lot of things
But I’d rather not get into that

I used to be the bright one
Smart as a whip
Funny how you slip so far when
Teachers don’t keep track of it

I used to be the tight one
The perfect fit
Funny how those compliments can
Make you feel so full of it

I can shuffle cut and deal
But I can't draw a hand
I can't draw a lot of things
I hope you understand
I'm not exceptionally shy
But I’ve never had a man
That I could look straight in the eye
And tell my secret plans

I can take a vow
And I can wear a ring
And I can make you promises but
They won't mean a thing

Can't you do it for me, I’ll pay you well
Fuck I’ll pay you anything if you could end this

Can't you just fix it for me, its gone berserk...
Fuck I’ll give you anything if
You can make the damn thing work

Can't you just fix it for me, I'll pay you well,
Fuck I'll pay you anything
If you can end this
Hello, I love you will you tell me your name?
Hello, I’m good for nothing - will you love me just the same?