Take A Rope And Tie Down These Thoughts Of Mine, Until I'm Fine

[desertions]

Sometimes I'm not sure what's wrong with me
I'm sad, depressed, and lonely, yet with no real reason
I mean, things are working themselves out, yet my feelings of uneasiness and hopelessness remain
I wake up, and the light shines through my room, and the sun seems to be the worst thing I've ever seen
I don't want to get up most days
I was told to clean my room today, and that within itself seems like an endless task
It's as if I'm looking through cracked glasses
Everything seems askew
I cry for no reason, and feel this panic I can't rid myself of
Am I loosing my mind?
My grip?
I just need someone to come and take me back to earth
Take care of me until I'm okay again
But how could I expect anyone to do that?
I don't know if anyone can really help me
And if they can, I don't deserve it
I don't think so anyways
I feel like such a horrible person
Yet I can't tell you why I am
I just feel that I am
Nothing is concrete anymore
Everything I was so sure of no longer makes sense
And all I really want is to be 4 again back when I could run to my mom and she'd hug me and tell me everthing's gonna be okay
Before everything went crazy
Before I became something so twisted

God, how can I expect anyone else to love me when I can't even love myself?

Song of The Entry:

Until I'm Fine by K's Choice

Cracked this morning worst and weak
Tears roll down from inside my cheek
Strange timing Oppurtunity knocks
Sun comes up, paradox
Take the whole part out this wine
Take a rope and tie these thoughts of mine down
Until I'm fine

Don't ask me if I'm hungry
I'm not sick
Somethings tearing me up
Brick by brick

And I feel guilty as I sigh
I'm feeling guilty
Why do I?

Take your hands out of mine
Take a rope and tie these thoughts of mine down
Until I'm fine

Cracked this morning worse and sad
Or have I already told you that
Forget my plans to grow a vine
You wern't dressed to burn these thoughts of mine
Until I'm fine
Until I'm fine