And What I Wouldn't Give To Meet A Kindred

[desertions]

My friends are teh awesome
I'm feeling much better now
Spent most of the night fooling around having crazy conversations with Meagen, among other people
And got a sweet email from Jasmine, and it all just lifted my spirits
I mean, there's still some stuff that's really bothering me
But sometimes all I need is to be reminded that people care
I know it sounds more cliche then a hallmark card, but it's true
Without my friends, I don't know if I'd be here today
They are what makes the dark times bareable
And the good times possible
I wish I could let go and just let their love overrun me
And stop worrying about everything and anything
Maybe if I could, I would be happy
But I am trying
I am giving it my best
And some days fucking suck
There are some days I do not want to get up out of bed for
And those are the days my friends force me to go out
And they end up rocking
Because my friends rock
All of em
I <3 you guys

I wish I could be as awesomely awesome as all of you

(PMS makes me so weirdly emotional o_O;;;; )

Peace out all, I need sleep if I ever want to get up for work tommorow (no school though, score!)

Song of the Entry:

All I Really Want
By Alanis Morrisette


Do I stress you out
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance

Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker

And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred

Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around
Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice...