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desertions) wrote2004-12-01 10:21 pm
desertions) wrote2004-12-01 10:21 pm
Now I'll Follow My Own Way, And I'll Live On To Another Damn Day
It's 9:49 pm
Why the heck am I so exhausted?
I swear this better not be becoming a trend
Other then last night, when I was up till 3 am working on a report, I've been going to be early for the past few days
Mind you, for me, anything before midnight is early, but still
Cramping my style man
Besides, what good is sleeping all the time, like I have been lately, if it just leaves me more tired then usual
And Dr. Deocampo's class is really draining me
Seriously, all this talk about the baby thesis paper (5 chaps, 50 pages!!!!) is freaking me out
I have never done anything near this size before
Scary stuff right there
And the family pressure has got to stop
It is way too much right now
I am trying the hardest I can
And if I fail, if I don't get in a college, aren't those my mistakes to make
Because really, all this pressure and stress is just making things work
And it's getting to the point where I almost don't care anymore
I can never please you all
And what I want is always too much
Tried to get ahold of them about the LoTR party, but they weren't home
Go figure
My aunt will probably leave me more random nagging messeges while I'm at school
Meanwhile, she never calls me when we could actually, you know, talk
Sometimes I just feel like their little puppet
And my strings are tired of being pulled
I am a person, I have feelings, take them into consideration for once
Everything is not about you and your fucking money
I swear, I cry almost every night now, I'm so miserable
I feel so inadequete, so fucked up
I can't do anything right
Or that's how you make me feel
Oh god, I'm going to cut this off right here, nobody needs my whining right now
Song of the Entry:
Life of My Own by Three Doors Down
Living risky,
never scared,
Wander closer to the edge
Nothing valued think no fear,
Always wondering why you’re here
All your purposes are gone, nothing’s
Right and nothing’s wrong
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
Feel no sorrow, feel no pain
Kiss me while I’m still alive
Kill me while I kiss the sky
Let me die on my own terms,
Let me live and let me learn
Now I’ll follow my own way, and I’ll
Live on to another damn day
Freedom carries sacrifice,
Remember when this was my life
Looking forward, not behind
Everybody’s got to cross that line
Free me now to give me a place,
Keep me caged and free the beast
Falling faster, time goes by,
Fear is not seen through these eyes
What there was will never be,
Now I’m blind and cannot see
Kiss me while I’m still alive
Kill me while I kiss the sky
Let me die on my own terms, let me
Live and let me learn
Now I’ll follow my own way, and I’ll
Live on to another damn day
Freedom carries sacrifice,
Remember when this was my life
Kiss me while I’m still alive
Kill me while I kiss the sky
Let me die on my own terms, let me
Live and let me learn
Now I’ll follow my own way,
And I’ll live on to another damn day
Freedom carries sacrifice,
Remember when this was my life.
Why the heck am I so exhausted?
I swear this better not be becoming a trend
Other then last night, when I was up till 3 am working on a report, I've been going to be early for the past few days
Mind you, for me, anything before midnight is early, but still
Cramping my style man
Besides, what good is sleeping all the time, like I have been lately, if it just leaves me more tired then usual
And Dr. Deocampo's class is really draining me
Seriously, all this talk about the baby thesis paper (5 chaps, 50 pages!!!!) is freaking me out
I have never done anything near this size before
Scary stuff right there
And the family pressure has got to stop
It is way too much right now
I am trying the hardest I can
And if I fail, if I don't get in a college, aren't those my mistakes to make
Because really, all this pressure and stress is just making things work
And it's getting to the point where I almost don't care anymore
I can never please you all
And what I want is always too much
Tried to get ahold of them about the LoTR party, but they weren't home
Go figure
My aunt will probably leave me more random nagging messeges while I'm at school
Meanwhile, she never calls me when we could actually, you know, talk
Sometimes I just feel like their little puppet
And my strings are tired of being pulled
I am a person, I have feelings, take them into consideration for once
Everything is not about you and your fucking money
I swear, I cry almost every night now, I'm so miserable
I feel so inadequete, so fucked up
I can't do anything right
Or that's how you make me feel
Oh god, I'm going to cut this off right here, nobody needs my whining right now
Song of the Entry:
Life of My Own by Three Doors Down
Living risky,
never scared,
Wander closer to the edge
Nothing valued think no fear,
Always wondering why you’re here
All your purposes are gone, nothing’s
Right and nothing’s wrong
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
Feel no sorrow, feel no pain
Kiss me while I’m still alive
Kill me while I kiss the sky
Let me die on my own terms,
Let me live and let me learn
Now I’ll follow my own way, and I’ll
Live on to another damn day
Freedom carries sacrifice,
Remember when this was my life
Looking forward, not behind
Everybody’s got to cross that line
Free me now to give me a place,
Keep me caged and free the beast
Falling faster, time goes by,
Fear is not seen through these eyes
What there was will never be,
Now I’m blind and cannot see
Kiss me while I’m still alive
Kill me while I kiss the sky
Let me die on my own terms, let me
Live and let me learn
Now I’ll follow my own way, and I’ll
Live on to another damn day
Freedom carries sacrifice,
Remember when this was my life
Kiss me while I’m still alive
Kill me while I kiss the sky
Let me die on my own terms, let me
Live and let me learn
Now I’ll follow my own way,
And I’ll live on to another damn day
Freedom carries sacrifice,
Remember when this was my life.