So Close To Dying That I Can Finally Start Living

[desertions]

Christmas was pretty simple this year
And actually good because of it
Yesterday I went to my uncle's for a while, and then came home, opened presents both places
Today I woke up late and we went to two movies
Spanglish and Meet The Fockers
Spanglish was touching and wonderful and gah, loved it so much
I <3 Adam Sandler
And I could relate to the daughter character alot....
Meet the Fockers was hilarious
I was almost crying I was laughing so hard
So buying the DVD
Alot more sex jokes in this one though
Really pushed the PG-13 rating

And now for...list of things I got

When The Lights Go Out: Nirvana Box Set
The Best of Bowie CD
Lord Of The Rings: Return Of The King: Extended Version
Harry Potter and The Prisoner Of Azkaban DVD
The most squishy and warm blanket evah!
A journal and photo album
Kittie pajamas
A bath set
A Barnes and Noble Gift Card
And.... $100

All in all, not a bad load, not bad at all

Feeling better too
As depressed as I may or may not of been lately I know it's going to get better
There's light beyond the darkness
And I think I'm finally beginning to see it
I'm so much better then I was this time of year last year
It's amazing the changes that have occured
How much I've grown

And I know it'll continue on this way
No matter how bad things can get, they can also get good
They can get better

And I'm not alone, and I'm not crazy either
I'm not so hopeless as I thought of

I don't really know what that means I am

But I'm willing to find out

And Merry Platypus to all!

Song of The Entry:

An Attempt To Tip The Scales by Bright Eyes
Did you expect it all to stop at the wave of your hand?
Like the sun is just going to drop if it's night you demand.
Well, in the dark we are just air so the house might dissolve.
But once we are gone,
who is gonna care if we were ever here at all?
Well, summer is going to come
and it's gonna cloud our eyes again.
There is not need to focus when there is nothing that it worth seeing.
So we trade liquor for blood in an attempt to tip the scales.
I think you lost what you loved in that mess of details.
They seemed so important at the time
but now you can't even recall any of the names, faces, or lines.
It is more the feeling of it all.
Well, winter is going to end
and I'm going to clean these veins again.
So close to dying that I finally can start living.