But What About Those Other Things I Can No Longer Bear?

[desertions]

Today was horrid
Absolutely and udderly horrid
So much fighting and screaming
God, I never thought I would get in trouble for doing my homework
Seriously, my aunt was spastic today
She even threw my slippers towards my room, they hit some funiture in the hallways
Luckily, nothing broke
She kept yelling at me and shit and screaming and invading my room
Then my uncle joined in, telling me he refused to take me to school
I cried so much and so many different times
My eyes are still stinging
I just wanted to write my paper for Dr. Deocampo
Not that they believed me when I told them
Then my aunt just screamed more, calling me a selfish liar
My aunt has a bad temper, always, but today it was out of control
We must fought at least 4 or 5 times during the day
Over basically the same stuff over and over again
Needless to say, the paper didn't get written
But as I'm still sorta sick my grandma is letting me stay home tommorow to do it
Thank God
I don't know if I'd be able to face school like this anyway
I hate this house, it's like a fucking prison
And school is even worse
It's time like this where I just want to run and run as fast as I can
I'd love to be anywhere then here
But I have no place to go
This is a battle I have to fight alone
This is a battle I fear I'm loosing

I can't do anything right
No matter how hard I try, things get fucked up
I want away from this pain
I want away from this disaster
I want away

I want to stop hurting

I'm so sick, so sick of this
Sometimes I'm just so tempted to end things
It would make things easier on everyone.

Or what I want most is to fall asleep and not wake up
All I want is some peace....

Song of The Entry:

I Fall Asleep by K's Choice

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I'm never waking up
I wish I could accept me
But I think I'm giving up

There's so much love and beauty
Yet to come, I am aware
But what about the other things
I can no longer bear

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I'm never waking up

Please, just let me be at peace
I want to feel the peace
I want to be the peace

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I'm never waking up