Someday I'll Walk Away And Say, "You Dissapoint Me"

[desertions]

Sorry there's been no real updates in a few days
Been trying to remesh my life I guess
Still semi-depressed, but hope has returned, however small that may be
Thanks to my friends and their constant encouragement, even in my darkest of hours
Got the grades thing hopefully figured out
I hope it'll be no problem fixing that stuff
So it seems like I'll probably still be able to graduate
We can only hope

I'm still pretty on edge though
I try to stay positive, but my temper is pretty much overriding everything

I was really cruel to Rachel the other night at Comedy Sportz
Calling her a spoiled brat and other things, saying how selfish she was being
Mind you, she knew I had to get home and was being sorta selfish
But still, I could of been alot nicer about it

I dunno, people just aren't living to my expectations lately
Not as much my friends, well most of them, as much as family

They are still treating me like some retarded kid who didn't try hard enough
They refuse to notice that I was near suicidal over this whole ordeal
They never notice how hard I try

They're so wrapped in their own stuff, sometimes I wonder if they would notice if I did something shocking infront of them

I just want them to own up to it
Admit their faults
Admit where they went wrong
And try to fix things

It seems like no matter how hard I try things never go the way I want them to

People never do what I'd like them to

And I don't know why I let it get to me anymore

But god, does it ever get to me

Song of The Entry:

Passive by A Perfect Circle

“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way

Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…

Wake up (we'll catch you) and face me (come one now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause one day (because one day)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way

Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this…you’re better off this…
Maybe you’re better off!

Wake up (can't you) and face me (come one now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way

Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!

Passive aggressive bullshit