Distill The Life That's Inside Of Me

[desertions]

I feel so lost lately
I keep saying it, but it's true
More responsibilities and problems keep arising
And I don't know if I can keep up with them
Keep on fighting like this

I feel so drained
So tired
So fed up
So useless

I'm honest about it too
I don't even try to pretend to be happy very often anymore
Maybe I'm not meant to be happy

I lack motivation
I lack drive

I'm tired all the time
Yet I can't sleep either
There's something wrong with me
And I can't get rid of it

How can one feel like dying when they never remember really living to begin with?

I'm on so many meds now
I drink teas and supplements just to sleep
But I'm still so tired
None of this seems to help

It just seems like there's something inside that grows, making sure I never get happiness
And I don't know how to get past it

Song of the Entry:

Pennyroyal Tea by Nirvana

I'm on my time with everyone
I have very bad posture

Sit and drink Pennyroyal tea
Distill the life that's inside of me
Sit and drink Pennyroyal tea
I'm anemic royalty

Give me a Leonard Cohen afterworld
So I can sigh eternally
I'm so tired I can't sleep
I'm anemic royalty
I'm a liar and a theif
I'm anemic royalty

I'm on warm milk and laxatives
Cherry-flavored antacids

Sit and drink Pennyroyal tea
Distill the life that's inside of me
I'm anemic royalty
I'm anemic royalty