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desertions) wrote2005-05-09 01:50 am
desertions) wrote2005-05-09 01:50 am
I Lock The Door And Lock My Head And Dream Of Butterflies Instead
Well, this weekend had ups and downs
Up was going to Susan's
I had fun just hanging out
I really want to play Digital Devil Saga now
It looked so awesome
And she was able to convince me that not all curry is evil
And fangirling Saiyuki is always a good time
Once I got home things sort of went downhill
My grandma went on and on about how nobody seemed to care that it was Mother's Day
Excuse me?
I took her and my mom out for breakfast this morning, paid for it and anything
And I told her about the bag I'm making her
But apprently it wasn't enough
My mother was worse
She didn't even seem to care that I took her out
Or went through the trouble of trying to find something she could really use/like
All she kept doing was asking when my sister would be home and what she was doing
Why the hell is it always about my sister?!
Seriously, I'm the one always trying hard and have been there for her, and who does my mother favor?
Sheena
I've kinda come to grips that's how it's always going to be
But still, when I take you out could you at least try to seem like you care?
This is why I hate these holidays
They always end up with me feeling bitter and jealous of my friends with a somewhat normal family
Father's day is always ten times worse
But we'll deal with that when it comes
Sometimes I just like to curl up and imagine a family that appriciated me a little better
A mother who actually recognized how hard I try to make her happy
A mother who remembered that her younger daughter needs a daighter as much as her elder one
And I should be used to it
This is how things always are
It shouldn't bother me
But it does anyways
I think I'm going to go to bed and try to escape reality again, for a few hours anyways
I think I like the world I create in my head better then reality sometimes
Scratch that, I know I do.
Song of the Entry:
Butterflies Instead by K's Choice
I lock the door and lock my head
And dream of butterflies instead
The beauty of their colored wings
The trees, the grass and pretty things
Imagination fills the void of my existence
Daddy says "I love you girl, it's not your fault
Your mom and me don't get along"
I know he's lying, I know there's no such thing as
Inexplicable I hear, forget, this world in bed
And suddenly the sun comes up
That's when my pets all come alive
They cheer me up and tell me
Everything's alright
Stuffed animals are always right
My favorite song, my favorite show
I wonder if they even know
Or if they care or if they even notice
I am standing there
I want my pets to come alive
And cheer me up and tell me
Everything's alright
Stuffed animals are always right
Everything's alright
Stuffed animals are always right
Alright...
My eyes all red, the baby's wet
And someone has to get that phone
I want my pets to come alive and
Cheer me up and tell me
Alright...
I lock the door and lock my head
And dream of butterflies instead
Up was going to Susan's
I had fun just hanging out
I really want to play Digital Devil Saga now
It looked so awesome
And she was able to convince me that not all curry is evil
And fangirling Saiyuki is always a good time
Once I got home things sort of went downhill
My grandma went on and on about how nobody seemed to care that it was Mother's Day
Excuse me?
I took her and my mom out for breakfast this morning, paid for it and anything
And I told her about the bag I'm making her
But apprently it wasn't enough
My mother was worse
She didn't even seem to care that I took her out
Or went through the trouble of trying to find something she could really use/like
All she kept doing was asking when my sister would be home and what she was doing
Why the hell is it always about my sister?!
Seriously, I'm the one always trying hard and have been there for her, and who does my mother favor?
Sheena
I've kinda come to grips that's how it's always going to be
But still, when I take you out could you at least try to seem like you care?
This is why I hate these holidays
They always end up with me feeling bitter and jealous of my friends with a somewhat normal family
Father's day is always ten times worse
But we'll deal with that when it comes
Sometimes I just like to curl up and imagine a family that appriciated me a little better
A mother who actually recognized how hard I try to make her happy
A mother who remembered that her younger daughter needs a daighter as much as her elder one
And I should be used to it
This is how things always are
It shouldn't bother me
But it does anyways
I think I'm going to go to bed and try to escape reality again, for a few hours anyways
I think I like the world I create in my head better then reality sometimes
Scratch that, I know I do.
Song of the Entry:
Butterflies Instead by K's Choice
I lock the door and lock my head
And dream of butterflies instead
The beauty of their colored wings
The trees, the grass and pretty things
Imagination fills the void of my existence
Daddy says "I love you girl, it's not your fault
Your mom and me don't get along"
I know he's lying, I know there's no such thing as
Inexplicable I hear, forget, this world in bed
And suddenly the sun comes up
That's when my pets all come alive
They cheer me up and tell me
Everything's alright
Stuffed animals are always right
My favorite song, my favorite show
I wonder if they even know
Or if they care or if they even notice
I am standing there
I want my pets to come alive
And cheer me up and tell me
Everything's alright
Stuffed animals are always right
Everything's alright
Stuffed animals are always right
Alright...
My eyes all red, the baby's wet
And someone has to get that phone
I want my pets to come alive and
Cheer me up and tell me
Alright...
I lock the door and lock my head
And dream of butterflies instead