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desertions) wrote2003-05-06 11:39 pm
desertions) wrote2003-05-06 11:39 pm
God Damn This Noise Inside My Head
Well I had a very...emotional group session today...
We got on the topic of my dad..
and got really deep into it...
and I got into how I hated being compared to him, when I don't even fucking remember him...
and then...
I started crying...
In my three years in group therapy, this is like the second time I've cried in there...
And they we got on the whole subject of my mom and that crap, and they kept telling me how I need to stop trying to take care of her...
I left feeling very depressed...
and just now in the bathroom i saw a candle, and raises my wrists above the flame, just enough to sting a bit, but not truly burn it...
We got on the topic of my dad..
and got really deep into it...
and I got into how I hated being compared to him, when I don't even fucking remember him...
and then...
I started crying...
In my three years in group therapy, this is like the second time I've cried in there...
And they we got on the whole subject of my mom and that crap, and they kept telling me how I need to stop trying to take care of her...
I left feeling very depressed...
and just now in the bathroom i saw a candle, and raises my wrists above the flame, just enough to sting a bit, but not truly burn it...