Can't Stop What Is Coming....

[desertions]

Ugh...
I hate this feeling...
This feeling of nothingness...
Everything sucks...
I can't beilive my mom is making me see my sister on mother's day...
then again, it seems like my mom doesn't care much what I think anymore...
maybe I wined too much...
maybe I was too me...
Who knows?
I've been so triggered lately...
how long can I last?
before I cut?
it's been three weeks....
I can hold out?
Or will I just break again?
Who knows?
not me...
and to top it all off...
I'm fucking sick...
I have a headache, stomache and sore throat...
and I had some of those chest pains again this morning...
Bah.....