It's All Over But The Crying, Fade To Black, I'm Sick Of Trying

[desertions]

Sometimes you have to cut your losses and realize there's nothing you can do to fix things
Sometimes, people and realtionships have changed too much
And there is simply nothing you can do about it.

This is one of those times
Meagen was one of my very best friends
I probably would of taken a bullet for her, had the situation ever come up
But she was unhappy, I guess
And even though I was perfectly willing to try to work things out
Apparently I wasn't worth the trouble

Yes, I have called more in the past six months ago, and been generally "needier"
But that wasn't me being manipulative or anything like that
For fuck's sake, MY MOTHER DIED
That would make anyone needier, and clingy
Espically someone who doesn't generally do well with loss
I wasn't being manipulative, I was just looking for a friend who would listen

So she put the friendship "on hold"
Because she doesn't want to deal with me while school and work is so busy
I'm sorry, but you can't just be my friend when it's convient to be
You either are my friend, or you're not
Simple as that

I wish she had told me before I had bought the plane tickets
It's going to cost $100 to change them, and you can't cancel them
So I'll probably end up going to Dallas to visit Jim and Eliana instead

So what can I do now, when she's made things so perfectly clear?
I can't put myself on the line anymore, I have to save myself somehow
So I throw in the towel
Say I'm better off

And the only thing left to do is mourn one of my oldest and dearest friends

I'll miss you Meagen, but I don't see much else I can do at this point

Even I run out of patience of trying to fix things

Song of the Entry:


It's All Over But The Crying by Garbage

Everything you think you know baby
Is wrong
And everything you think you had baby
Is gone

Certain things turn ugly when you think too hard
And nagging little thoughts change into things you can't turn off
Everything you think you know baby
Is wrong

It's all over but the crying
Fade to black I'm sick of trying
Took too much and now I'm done
It's all over but the crying

Do you really think I'm made of stone baby?
C'mon!
That we only love the things we own?
Baby you're wrong

Certain things just happen when you make no plans
And love can really tear you up and it can break you down
Everything you think you know baby
Is wrong

It's all over but the crying
Fade to black I'm sick of trying
Took too much and now I'm done
It's all over but the crying

Baby we're done

If I could I would
I'd change everything
Cause I can't forget you though you don't believe me
Now I can't walk back
I can't leave behind
Where does it go all the light that we had?

Everything you think you know baby
Is wrong
And everything you think you had baby
Is gone

Baby we're done