Yes, A Heart Can Hallucinate If It's Completely Starved For Love

[desertions]

Sometimes, a song of something will really make me think and stuff
For tonight, that song is "Goodbye Alice in Wonderland" by Jewel
Now, I almost forsake Jewel for her last album, but this new one?
It is filled with awesome
Just as insightful and awesome as her older stuff
But my favorite song is that title track, Goodbye Alice In Wonderland
Why?
Because it hits home
I often blind myself to situations because it's easier
Looking back with the Meagen thing, I should of seen it coming
But I decided to ignore the situation
To pretend that everything was okay
That she still cared about me as much as she always did
Cause that's what I felt I needed
I made up so many fantasies
And all of them ended up hurting me all the more
So where do I go from now?
Continuing the pattern?
Or changing things
Opening my eyes, I suppose
It's okay to dream of falling in love, to want companionship, but not to the point where you ignore the truth
You have to keep things in perspective
Otherwise, you'll make things worse for yourself

I realize that now

Song of the Entry:

Goodbye Alice in Wonderland by Jewel

It's four in the afternoon
I'm on a flight leaving L.A.
Trying to figure out my life
My youth scattered along the highway

Hotel rooms and headlines
I've made a living with a song
Guitar as my companion
Wanting desperately to belong

Fame is filled with spoiled children
We grow fat on fantasy
I guess that's why I'm leaving
I crave reality

So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
I did not find paradise
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind searching
For what's been missing in my life

I'm embarassed to say
the rest is rock and roll cliche
I hit the bottom when I reached the top
I never knew it was you
who was breaking my heart
I thought you had to love me
But you did not

Yes, a heart can hallucinate
If it's completely starved for love
It can even turn monsters
Into angels from above

You forged my love just like a weapon
And turned it against me like a knife
You broke my last heartstring
You opened up my eyes


So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
That was not love in your eyes
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind wanting
what's been missing in my life

Growing up is not an absence of dreaming
It's being able to understand the difference between the ones you can hold
And the ones that you've been sold
Dreaming is a good thing
Cause it brings new things to life
But pretending is an ending that Perpetuates a lie
Forgetting what you are seeing
For what you've been told

Truth is stranger than fiction
This is my chance to get it right
Life is much better without all those pretty lies

So Goodbye Alice in Wonderland
You can keep your yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
These are not tears in my eyes
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
I've found what's missing in my life