Heart gets weary, and sick of trying

[desertions]

I hate this fucking shit!
I really and truly hate it!
I deserve better than this!
I was having a fucking ok day!
and then i come home, and do my homework
like a good kid...
and finally when i settle down to watch some tv, relax
my aunt comes in and yells at me for forgetting to make dinner
later, my grandmother follows suit
(though when anyone else forgets no one gives a fuck...)
and I fucking lost it, i started searching for something,
anything to cut with...
but i couldn't find anything...
so I think I'll just go back to my bed...
to curl up, crying,
waititng to disseapear..
no one will miss the kat-bot...
not really..