I'm A Lonely Girl, I'll Tell A Tale For You...

[desertions]

anyone know what paraphrasing is? well, i took the song "Lonely Girl" by Pink, and paraphrased it


I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize

One of my earliest memories is of crying. It was when my dad died. I was only five. I cried at first, but I don't think I every properly mourned him, instead I just buried it inside of me. I think I'm just begining to feel it again. Whether I want to or not.

Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again

I just stay in my room, with barely even any lights on. Staring, out to space I guess. I was just waiting for everything to stop. Because it's too hard to fight. But still, sometimes I find myself curling in bed, crying my eyes out for all it's worth. Because this is too strong, I just don't know what to do. How can I ever possibly win?

Do you even know who you are?
I guess I'm tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
I want to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?

I don't even know who the hell I am anymore. I'm so sick of trying, everytime I think I come close, I lose me again. Are my ambitions even my own anymore? Or am I still just trying to please everyone but myself. I wanted to be so much, to be so great, what the hell happened. Are things even that bad? Could they even be good? How come I don't know? Am I just taking everything for granted?

Lyin' awake watchin' the sunlight
How the birds will sing as I count the rings
around my eyes
Constantly pushing the world I know aside
I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to
try

I never sleep, well not good sleep anyways. I constently have bags under my eyes. Not that I want to even get up at this point, I just want to push everything away. It's far better not to feel at all then be in contstant pain.

I'm lookin' for a way to become
The person that I dreamt of when I was sixteen
Oh, nothin' is ever enough
Ooh, baby, it ain't enough for what it may seem

What happened to the girl I dreamed to be? Why can't I be her anymore? And why can't I be happy with what I have? It seems like there is always something more that would make things "ok".

Do you even know who you are?
I'm still tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Everybody wants to be
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No

I'm still looking for me, is she in here? I want to find her. I want to be what everyone wants to be. I want to be perfect. So no one will hate me, no one will hurt me. Then things won't look bad, or will they? Maybe I should count my blessings, assuming I have some...

Sorry girl, tell a tale for me
Cuz I'm wondering how you really feel
I'm a lonely girl, I'll tell a tale for you
Cuz I'm just tryin' to make all my dreams come
true

I wonder, how do I really feel? I keep everything so bottled up, gets muddled, to the point where I cannot even tell anymore. I just want to make my dreams come true, to become more than this nothingness I am.

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, yeah, yeah
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Oh, I wanted to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell, I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
I guess not, oh I guess not

Do I know who I am? I am Katie, aka Celeb Ryu. I am the self proclaimed queen of angst. My dreams are not borrowed, but my own. I still want to someday become that perfect star who will please everyone. Do I know how lucky I truly am? Somehow, I just don't think so...

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, I'm tryin' to find
A rising dream or a superstar?
Oh, I have a all these dreams
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No, no
Do you even know what you are?
A rising dream or a fallen star?
Is life good to you or is it bad?

I will find the real Katie, something that's beyond this, better than this. I have so many dreams, it can't be too late for at least some of them to come true. Life isn't so bad right? Well I'm not really sure to tell the truth. Do I know what I have? How many people care? Hell no...
Do I know Who I am?
Is this star Falling?
Is Life Good?
Or bad?
only time will tell....

Hope you enjoyed, what can I say.... I got bored...
and if you've never heard that song, download it.
NOW.