Father of mine, where have you been?

[desertions]

I hate fathers day!
Hate hate hate it!
It depresses me so.
Then again, it always has.
I was always the kid who had to make the fathers day shit for her grandpa, not her dad, cause my dad was dead.
And now my grandpa, who pretty much was my father figure, is dead too
so what am I supposed to do?
give shit to my uncles?
Ugh..I wish I could just sleep through the day...
too bad that isn't an option