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desertions) wrote2007-06-27 01:48 pm
desertions) wrote2007-06-27 01:48 pm
Always, May God's Love Be With You
I close my eyes and sometimes, I picture her perfectly, her smile, her laugh, the way her very presence would soothe me.
And when I look back, it's not always in anger.
I loved her in a way I have not anyone else, and I think part of me always will.
But we separated. Things like that happen, I suppose.
I wish I had handled things better, looking back.
In many ways, things are just as much my fault as they are hers.
And I know it's too late to fix things.
We probably never will be friends again.
We probably never will see one another again.
But part of me hopes she finds someone to make her happy in a way I obviously could not.
And I was messed up back then, still am, in a lot of ways
But I'm working at it.
I'm a better a person, and I like to think a better friend.
I'm trying to figure out what I need, as opposed to just what I want.
And for the first time, I'm almost happy. The closest I've been to truly happy in my whole life.
And I hope that wherever she is, and whatever she's doing, Meagen is happy too.
Song of the Entry:
In the Sun by Joesph Arthur
I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in
May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you
I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You cant keep awake
May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you
cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You
I dont know anymore
What its for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what its for
Any more than me
May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you
And when I look back, it's not always in anger.
I loved her in a way I have not anyone else, and I think part of me always will.
But we separated. Things like that happen, I suppose.
I wish I had handled things better, looking back.
In many ways, things are just as much my fault as they are hers.
And I know it's too late to fix things.
We probably never will be friends again.
We probably never will see one another again.
But part of me hopes she finds someone to make her happy in a way I obviously could not.
And I was messed up back then, still am, in a lot of ways
But I'm working at it.
I'm a better a person, and I like to think a better friend.
I'm trying to figure out what I need, as opposed to just what I want.
And for the first time, I'm almost happy. The closest I've been to truly happy in my whole life.
And I hope that wherever she is, and whatever she's doing, Meagen is happy too.
Song of the Entry:
In the Sun by Joesph Arthur
I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in
May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you
I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You cant keep awake
May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you
cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You
I dont know anymore
What its for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what its for
Any more than me
May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you