desertions | And I See It Coming And It's On It's Way

I love when the anger fades and I'm just left with hurt and disappointment and things I'd rather not be thinking about. Things I spend alot of time trying my hardest not to think about, because what good is it going to do, dwelling? I do too much of it as it is.

I can't change how other people act...even if I sometimes really wish I could. I just...I would never treat people the way alot of people seem to treat me, or even some of my friends. Am I just too nice? Am I not fucking jaded enough, because I was pretty sure I was. I want to just trust people, but time after time tells me that's a bad idea.

I can't seem to find the off switch for my brain either, but I'd like to find that as well.

Time for a sleep attempt. Hurr. We'll see how it goes.