And I Know Tomorrow I'll Regret The Things I Do

[desertions]

Since I can't go back to sleep, have a meme:

DEFAULT ICON.



Elle :|

OLDEST ICON.



NEWEST ICON.
See default icon :|

SADDEST ICON.



HAPPIEST ICON.

DANSU! DANSU!

ANGRIEST ICON.


CUTEST ICON.


SEXIEST ICON.



MOST HUMOROUS ICON.


Dude, he's like....sniffing her :| How is that not funny?


FAVORITE SHIP ICON.



:| Don't judge me

ICON YOU USE THE MOST.

No idea :| Probably this one:


FAVORITE OVERALL.


I just loved how the coloring overall came out. Plus, Kami-sama is a loveable, crazy son of a bitch :|

HOW MANY ICONS DO YOU HAVE TOTAL?
117

HOW MANY CAN YOU HAVE?
117

IF YOU COULD BUY SPACE FOR MORE, WOULD YOU?
Probably :<

DO YOUR ICONS MAKE A STATEMENT ABOUT YOU?
...That I like random stuff? :D

WHAT FANDOM DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF?
Bleach/Saiyuki?

THE SECOND MOST?
KHR

WHAT SHIP DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF?
Collenello/Lal :| I just don't have that many shippy icons

HOW DO YOU CATEGORIZE YOUR ICONS?
I don't, really

ARE YOUR ICONS MOSTLY MADE BY OTHER USERS?
Probably

ANIMATED ICONS ARE...
Fun when done right

IN GENERAL I THINK ICONS...
Fun? Pretty? A good way to spend my time? 

 

In other news I think I've talked to my sister more in the past few days then I have...in my whole life. I dunno, it's strange. Things keep being brought up that I don't want to think about. I just want them shoved back in the corner, those nagging thoughts I've had since I found out the truth about my mom. These talks of ours don't help with that.

At least drinking with Wendy, Alexis and Ciarra was alright. Even if I did make everyone awkward with my drunken offensive statement about my aunt's dead baby. Sad thing is? Probably would have said it even if I was sober. I don't know what that says about me.

I got like four hours of sleep again. Sharing a room with that many people and feeling like I can't even get up to piss without pissing five cousins off? Not a good sleep environment. Especially the corner I was shoved in last night. My body is so sore, it's not funny. I just want to go home.

This trip is draining. I need to start memorizing those lines for my class on Monday. Maybe I'll stay behind today. I don't know why, but being around my family for any long period makes me feel so..awkward. I just get tired of all the jabs at the things that interest me, like I really am some kind of...I dunno, freak or something. Just because I prefer comics and anime over shopping. Because I'd usually rather stay in than go out. That I've been lied to for most of my life because everyone sees me as this fragile, breakable fucking thing.

It just brings out the worst in me...this bitterness and jealousy that I just don't like.


Too much thinking about other things as well, but I just..I don't know.