We'll love you, just the way you are, if you're perfect

[desertions]

Ugh today was a bad bad day
Didn't end up finding out if I got into AP Bio or not
Found out some distressing news about one of my friends that I can't even really talk about
And then when I finally beginning to cheer up my grandma asks me to "talk" and we have one of our famous rows
God, doesn't she realize I'm a fucking human being?
I mean, between, tutoring, play practice, biofeedback, theraphy, and work when am I supposed to go to the DMV to renew my permit
Let alone take driving lesson
I mean doing such and still have time to actually have fun during break
What does she expect from me?
She says I have to be "resposible" before having fun..
Well, when will doing everything she says make me resposible
When will I be fucking good enough?
Even if I cleaned my room, did all my laundry, did weeks worth of homework, and got all the driving stuff done during break it wouldn't be enough
and you know why?
Because nothing is ever enough
I could be perfect, and she would still want more more more
I could never sob, never yell, always agree, be everything she wants...
I want her to be proud...so badly...



Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud

I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem...why are you crying

Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are
If you're perfect



This song always reminds me of how she acts, espically the bolded lines...