If You Can't Feel Something Then You're Just That Dumb

[desertions]

I'm not normally a shy person
I'm opionated, and to the point
Usually anyways
But when I'm trying to get close to someone, I choke up
Like the whole Mitchell situation
My friends find it almost funny that I get so nervous around him
But I don't think they understand how hard it for me
In the past when I've liked someone, I usually just let it slide, kept inside
So all of this is new, and terrifying
Though exciting as well
I think I'm beginning to loosen up around him
It just takes time
Intimacy, letting people in, is hard for me, and rather a new concept
I mean, on a regular basis I don't even like most people touch me
So you can see how letting him hold me was such a big step
The only other person I really allow do that is my mom
And why I'm ranting about this now I'm not sure
I guess it's just been on my mind
That and the fact that I need to learn to be more assertive

Espically if I want to ask him to come to prom with me....