You Would Take Me To A Place Inside That's So Hard To Reach

[desertions]

Had my family party today
It was kinda boring, but okay
My sister kept talking about when we were little, and that kinda depressed me
Once upon a time, I used to look up to her
I did whatever she said, and never questioned her actions
Sometimes I long to be that trusting again
Because I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust her again
And when we were swimming she kept bringing up my father
Who I usually kinda push away from my mind
Because once I start thinking about him, it's hard not to stop
Anyways...all in all, it was okay
Not great, but could of been worse
Got my monologue memorized
Yay?
I dunno, kinda in a funk, but not a terribly horrible one or anything
I don't want to go back to school...
I really don't
Getting up at 6:30 is going to be hell after having about 2 weeks to get out of the habit
I am not a morning person

Daddy, can you hear me? Are you proud of the girl I've become? In these 12 years you've been gone, did I do okay? Daddy...