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desertions) wrote2004-06-01 01:17 am
desertions) wrote2004-06-01 01:17 am
This Is Me Pretending This Is All I Need
Weee..
My body is so sore/stiff.
Someone give me a back rub!
Ahem..or not
Anyways, been busy the past few days
Went with my aunt and uncle and stayed with them in a cabin at Bass Lake, which is about an hour away from Yosemite
It was pretty fun, despite a few mishaps, like the owners not being informed we were renting it and showing up, and a boat drifting off.
Luckily, I was able to save the boat, cause I be awesome like that
We went tubing, road around in the boat we rented, rented jet skis (I WANT ONE! MUST GET GRANDMA TO RENT ONE WHEN WE GO TO HAWAII), went to Yosemite for a day, which inspired much nostalgia from me. After all, I used to go there every summer. Hell, my parents got married there. It's one of the most beautiful places I've ever been to, I never get sick of it.
The only problem was the two people I was generally hanging out with Erin (My Aunt Wendy's neice from her side of the family) and Alex (our family friend's son) started really hitting it off, which left me feeling left out, and like a third wheel. Kinda lonely and depressed..Seeing them together made me really want to see Mitchell...plus, I could plainly see a bunch of cuts and scars on Erin's arms (not suprising, as I already knew she was a cutter) So I was lonely, depressed, and triggered to boot. The thing that kept me from cutting though was the fact that I had 5 months of being "sober", and this just didn't seem like the sorta thing to break that over. It was still really hard to deal with. I ended up spending alot of the time listening to my cds. I would of read, but I finished the one book I brought with me, The DaVinci Code, within the first day.
Still, it could of been worse. At least it didn't have the major fiascos some of the other Carlson family trips have had
And then I got home today, and got back to planning stuff.
Harry Potter- The plans to see this with Meagen and co. must work out! They must! Grr...
SATs-Boo! Boo! I forgot to study over the weekend, well, not so much forgot as chose not too :p
Graduations- So many! Gah, must get to them all! I must! I must!
Mitchell's Karaoke Party- I want to go to this very badly! But I need a ride! I'm willing to pay gas money! Grrr...why must I live so far?!
Extended Cousin Luncheon Thingie- Eh, I could care less about this, but whatever, it'll be nice to see some of them I guess, it just adds another thing to do...
And that's all for next weekend
Seriously, more and more lately I've begun to resent my paranoia of driving
I need to get my liscence ASAP, life will be much easier then
Not tired...but it's late...and I have school...grr...but AMVs! I want to download more!
Sleep is for the weak!
It's not like I've gotten any decent sleep in the past few weeks anyways
Lately I haven't been able to fall asleep before 2 or 3, which isn't very good for school
Ah well...
I think there was more, but I forgot...
So sore...
One day till June 2... *sighs* what is it? Three years now?
My body is so sore/stiff.
Someone give me a back rub!
Ahem..or not
Anyways, been busy the past few days
Went with my aunt and uncle and stayed with them in a cabin at Bass Lake, which is about an hour away from Yosemite
It was pretty fun, despite a few mishaps, like the owners not being informed we were renting it and showing up, and a boat drifting off.
Luckily, I was able to save the boat, cause I be awesome like that
We went tubing, road around in the boat we rented, rented jet skis (I WANT ONE! MUST GET GRANDMA TO RENT ONE WHEN WE GO TO HAWAII), went to Yosemite for a day, which inspired much nostalgia from me. After all, I used to go there every summer. Hell, my parents got married there. It's one of the most beautiful places I've ever been to, I never get sick of it.
The only problem was the two people I was generally hanging out with Erin (My Aunt Wendy's neice from her side of the family) and Alex (our family friend's son) started really hitting it off, which left me feeling left out, and like a third wheel. Kinda lonely and depressed..Seeing them together made me really want to see Mitchell...plus, I could plainly see a bunch of cuts and scars on Erin's arms (not suprising, as I already knew she was a cutter) So I was lonely, depressed, and triggered to boot. The thing that kept me from cutting though was the fact that I had 5 months of being "sober", and this just didn't seem like the sorta thing to break that over. It was still really hard to deal with. I ended up spending alot of the time listening to my cds. I would of read, but I finished the one book I brought with me, The DaVinci Code, within the first day.
Still, it could of been worse. At least it didn't have the major fiascos some of the other Carlson family trips have had
And then I got home today, and got back to planning stuff.
Harry Potter- The plans to see this with Meagen and co. must work out! They must! Grr...
SATs-Boo! Boo! I forgot to study over the weekend, well, not so much forgot as chose not too :p
Graduations- So many! Gah, must get to them all! I must! I must!
Mitchell's Karaoke Party- I want to go to this very badly! But I need a ride! I'm willing to pay gas money! Grrr...why must I live so far?!
Extended Cousin Luncheon Thingie- Eh, I could care less about this, but whatever, it'll be nice to see some of them I guess, it just adds another thing to do...
And that's all for next weekend
Seriously, more and more lately I've begun to resent my paranoia of driving
I need to get my liscence ASAP, life will be much easier then
Not tired...but it's late...and I have school...grr...but AMVs! I want to download more!
Sleep is for the weak!
It's not like I've gotten any decent sleep in the past few weeks anyways
Lately I haven't been able to fall asleep before 2 or 3, which isn't very good for school
Ah well...
I think there was more, but I forgot...
So sore...
One day till June 2... *sighs* what is it? Three years now?