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desertions) wrote2004-09-27 05:07 pm
desertions) wrote2004-09-27 05:07 pm
And Stop Crying Your Heart Out...
Ugh. I don't feel so well, I stayed home sick today
Been barfing alot, might stay home tommorow as well
Anyways, where to start since the last update...
Kairos went well, can't really go into detail, cause I don't want to spoil anything for those who haven't gone yet
But it was one of the most moving experiences of my life
I learned alot about others, and alot about myself
I don't know where I'm going
But I know I have to keep on going
And there were so many things I hated and held against me
But somehow, I let go
Not of all of it, but of some
Cause I mean, I can't keep going on hating myself forever, you know?
That doesn't work
And I'm tired of it
I am so sick of sitting in bed waiting to be someone else
Cause it isn't going to happen
So I let go
I really did
It's hard to explain, but I did
And it was the best thing I could do
Then this weekend I stayed at Rachel's dorm, that was sorta fun, the college was big though
Made me kinda panicy, espically when she kept joking about taking me to a college party
I have weird social anxiety sometimes
Then Saturday I went out with Lisa, Gilb, and Missy to see Ghost In The Shell 2: Innocence at the Rialto
That was a confusing, but awesome movie.
Plus they were showing the subtitled version! JOY!
So, that's my recent life in a nutshell I guess
Now onto something I need to get off my back
Ever have a friend who you feel depends on you for everything?
Calls you when everything in the slightest goes array?
And expects you to fix it?
They make everything into a huge deal
And make themselves a victim over and over again?
I don't know, I want to help her
But I've tried my best, but there's always something else you know?
And how can I take care of someone else when I don't even know what I want
*sighs* Life can be so complecated...
Song of the Moment:
Stop Crying Your Heart Out by Oasis
Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
P.S. New Icons for newish state of mind. Or something like that.
I'm gonna go lie down again now...
Been barfing alot, might stay home tommorow as well
Anyways, where to start since the last update...
Kairos went well, can't really go into detail, cause I don't want to spoil anything for those who haven't gone yet
But it was one of the most moving experiences of my life
I learned alot about others, and alot about myself
I don't know where I'm going
But I know I have to keep on going
And there were so many things I hated and held against me
But somehow, I let go
Not of all of it, but of some
Cause I mean, I can't keep going on hating myself forever, you know?
That doesn't work
And I'm tired of it
I am so sick of sitting in bed waiting to be someone else
Cause it isn't going to happen
So I let go
I really did
It's hard to explain, but I did
And it was the best thing I could do
Then this weekend I stayed at Rachel's dorm, that was sorta fun, the college was big though
Made me kinda panicy, espically when she kept joking about taking me to a college party
I have weird social anxiety sometimes
Then Saturday I went out with Lisa, Gilb, and Missy to see Ghost In The Shell 2: Innocence at the Rialto
That was a confusing, but awesome movie.
Plus they were showing the subtitled version! JOY!
So, that's my recent life in a nutshell I guess
Now onto something I need to get off my back
Ever have a friend who you feel depends on you for everything?
Calls you when everything in the slightest goes array?
And expects you to fix it?
They make everything into a huge deal
And make themselves a victim over and over again?
I don't know, I want to help her
But I've tried my best, but there's always something else you know?
And how can I take care of someone else when I don't even know what I want
*sighs* Life can be so complecated...
Song of the Moment:
Stop Crying Your Heart Out by Oasis
Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
P.S. New Icons for newish state of mind. Or something like that.
I'm gonna go lie down again now...