If I Was Pretty Maybe You'd Look At Me

[desertions]

Not much to say I guess
Going to see a movie with Kevin this weekend, then gonna try to head over to see the Fullerton group
Should be fun, haven't seen most of them since the breakup
Should start on my essays, as I have TWO due tommorow
one for Pysch and one for Government...
And neither started
isn't procrastenation fun?
I think so...

Hmm...I've been digging up old poems from middle school and freshman, and sophmore year and have decided to post a few I actually like
Feedback would be very appriciated


Guardian Angel
Hey guardian angel,
are you still there?
I wonder if you still care
Cause it doesn't seem like
you're watching over me anymore
Cause if you were,
how'd I get all these sores
Maybe you just got lazy
so everything around me went crazy
Aren't you supposed to be watching me?
But you aren't, from what I see
Are you on call
or are you watching and waiting
Of do you spend your time debating
Wheter to interfear or not
By the time you come I'll be shot
I wish I had a better guardian than you
But since no one else will do it,
I guess you'll do



Kate
All alone, but what's new?
I'm all too acquainted to abuse
So I fucked up again
No wonder you can't stand being my friend
You got sick of me like all the rest
Well, I have something to confess
I have already accepted my fate
'Cause I'm sick and tired of being Kate
Want to be someone other then me
Want to fly free
But my one true enemy
I always see
In the mirror we stand face to face
Reminding me of my disgrace
I can't even get myself to cry
You hate me now well so do I
And I have already accepted my fate
Cause I'm sick and tired of being Kate



Nothing
Why can't I forget this?
All the misery I've been through?
It seems like every single day,
I manage to disappoint someone new
Nothing changes
And nothing is okay
I can't keep this up,
Just existing this way
Since I was born
All I have ever known is pain
If this keeps up,
I'll crack up again
Everyone's dead
Everyone's gone
And I have overstayed my welcome
For much too long
I have to escape this,
I need to be free
But at the end of the day
I'm stuck her alone with me
Drops of crimson
Rushing down my arm
All I know
Is the pain and harm
Sometimes I wish
I could just fade away
But for some odd reason
I'm forced to stay
Nothing changes
And nothing is okay
I can't keep this up,
Just existing this way
I want to escape this,
I'm tired of being
I want to fade



Catch Me
I need someone to listen to what I don't say
I need someone to care no matter what
I need someone to know when not to ask questions
I need someone to catch me when I fall
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
I need someone to understand my problems
I need someone to realize when to let me be
I need someone to wipe away my tears
I need someone to catch me when I fall
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
I need someone to see past my image
I need someone to respect my feelings
I need someone to acknowledge my good points
I need someone to catch me when I fall
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
I need someone to see me when I'm invisible
I need someone to lift me up when I'm down
I need someone to love me when I'm horrible
I need someone to catch me when I fall
And if I scream
Will you come to my aid
If I ask
Will you stay for a while
And if I fall
will you catch me
Catch me
I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling



My Final Plea
You did not know I heard you
But your words echoed in my ears
This was my boiling point
The pressure was too much
I felt trapped
And I needed to leave
I swallowed the pills
Cause it seemed like my only option
Was to die
As I wrote the note
And lied in bed
In the silence I cried out
My final plea
Please care I said
Somebody, Anybody
It doesn’t matter
Please just somebody care
Please somebody love me


Okay, enough for now...
Still, how things change yet how they stay the same
And now I really need to start those essays @_@

Song of the Entry:

Pretty by Skills of Ortega

If I was pretty
Maybe you’d look at me
Her kind of pretty
Will be there in your dreams
But I am not the one you think of each day
The pretty one who makes you feel that way
If I was her you’d hunger for my touch
If I looked like her you’d never have enough
Though I can be one so much to feel
Though all I can do is give myself to you
So beautiful, you can’t help yourself
So beautiful, you want no one else
If I was better maybe you’d stay with me
So much better you’d never want to leave
But I’m not enough to make you want to stay
Never quite enough so you just walk away
So beautiful, you can’t help yourself
So beautiful, you want no one else
So beautiful, you just have to touch
So beautiful, you want her so much
So pretty
So pretty
So pretty
So pretty
So pretty

Beautiful song. Her voice is so haunting. Again, I urge you to go to http://www.skillsofortega.com and download it
You won't regret it
Right
Essay time
n.n