I've Decided Tonight, I'm Staying Alive, Just Kicking And Screaming

[desertions]

Bah
I would talk about the election, but as the impending and unevitable results anger me...
I shant
Other then that though, was in a sorta better mood today
Not sure why, but maybe my depression is letting up a bit
Or maybe I was just too distracted by the elections :p

Dating...
I really want to get into that again, but like I said, nothing serious
Someone to hang out with, talk to, make out with.
But not like "OMGILOVEYOUSOMUCH!!!1"
Gag me, please

Besides which, I've only been on about two actual dates, if you could call them that
I'd like to go on some more before high school ends

I think one of my friends may have a crush on me, but I dunno if I'd want to date her...
And she probably doesn't so eh, why stress it and make things awkard
Just cause she stared at me and called me handsome today....doesn't mean anything

As bad as things have been for me lately, I have to push through
I have tests, essays, SATs, and college applications to worry about
I have things to do and moping isn't going to get them done
Besides, moping is really unhealthy, and I know if I get too into the habit of it
I'm gonna pay
So why risk it?

I dunno why I seem so much more certain about things suddenly
I guess it's like looking at things clearly, like when we finally realized I needed glasses, at least for some of the time

There's still alot of shit I have to deal with
And it may not be always fun
But I know I can do it

And thank you all for your support, I know I haven't been the easiest person to deal with lately
And I wouldn't be suprised if most of you just skipped over the whining

But to those of you who posted with comfort or advice or whatever you could, thanks
Sometimes it's hard to see people care
Espically when you can't even care for yourself

Song of the Entry:

Staying Alive by Cursive

I've decided tonight I'm staying alive just kicking & screaming
Blood boiling & steaming
There are things far too dark to comprehend
Sleep on it one more night my sad old friend
Doo do Doo do Doo do Doo do
The worst is over.


And those are all the lyrics to the song! Very simple! But, very raw, and very beautiful. If you only download one song I post, download this one
I doubt you'll regret it