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desertions) wrote2004-11-05 03:20 am
desertions) wrote2004-11-05 03:20 am
The Way I'm Left Here Silent....
Woo! Finished Essay!
Go me!
Kinda emotionally drained though
Been so stressed lately
And we just found out my uncle isn't going to help out as much with paying for college as me thought he would
And when I was visiting Marymount today I found out that I don't qualify for most kinds of finacial aid, not for the first year anyways
Which means I may need to take out a studen loan
Fuck, fuck fuck
Not good
I hate how the one time I ask my uncle to help me, as he's supposed to be my guardian, he keeps turning on me
Since this all started last spring it's been one drama after another with him
I wish he would just be direct with me
Cause I don't know what the fuck is going on
I don't even know how much he's willing to pay
And he always acted like he was going to pay for everything, so of course there's no savings put aside for college
Just, fuck, this is really not good
And I really do not need this right now
I was stressed out as it is
I swear, I'm going to implode from all this stress
I guess that's why I started crying so hard so randomly
And stratching all my arms up, though not to the point of bleeding or anything
But still pretty irritated/sore
And I haven't done anything like that in such a long time...
I feel like I'm slipping, slipping further further away
And as I try to cling onto something
I just keep falling
Song of The Entry:
Little Earthquakes by Tori Amos
Yellow bird flying gets shot in the wing
Good year for hunters and Christmas parties
And I hate and I hate and I hate
And I hate elevator music
The way we fight
The way I'm left here silent
Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
We danced in graveyards with vampires till dawn
We laughed in the faces of king never afraid to burn
and I hate and I hate and I hate
and I hate disintegration
Watching us wither
Black winged roses that safely changed their COLOR
Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
I can't reach you
I can't reach you
Give me life
Give me pain
Give me myself again
Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
Go me!
Kinda emotionally drained though
Been so stressed lately
And we just found out my uncle isn't going to help out as much with paying for college as me thought he would
And when I was visiting Marymount today I found out that I don't qualify for most kinds of finacial aid, not for the first year anyways
Which means I may need to take out a studen loan
Fuck, fuck fuck
Not good
I hate how the one time I ask my uncle to help me, as he's supposed to be my guardian, he keeps turning on me
Since this all started last spring it's been one drama after another with him
I wish he would just be direct with me
Cause I don't know what the fuck is going on
I don't even know how much he's willing to pay
And he always acted like he was going to pay for everything, so of course there's no savings put aside for college
Just, fuck, this is really not good
And I really do not need this right now
I was stressed out as it is
I swear, I'm going to implode from all this stress
I guess that's why I started crying so hard so randomly
And stratching all my arms up, though not to the point of bleeding or anything
But still pretty irritated/sore
And I haven't done anything like that in such a long time...
I feel like I'm slipping, slipping further further away
And as I try to cling onto something
I just keep falling
Song of The Entry:
Little Earthquakes by Tori Amos
Yellow bird flying gets shot in the wing
Good year for hunters and Christmas parties
And I hate and I hate and I hate
And I hate elevator music
The way we fight
The way I'm left here silent
Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
We danced in graveyards with vampires till dawn
We laughed in the faces of king never afraid to burn
and I hate and I hate and I hate
and I hate disintegration
Watching us wither
Black winged roses that safely changed their COLOR
Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
I can't reach you
I can't reach you
Give me life
Give me pain
Give me myself again
Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces