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desertions) wrote2004-12-03 11:56 pm
desertions) wrote2004-12-03 11:56 pm
I Might've Lived My Life In A Dream But I Swear It, This Is Real
Sorry if I freaked out anyone with that last entry
I am a bit calmer now
Much thanks to Kelly, for listening to me bitch and moan
As well as Alanna and Erin
I <3333 you all muchly
Stress got to me I guess
Or something
Dr. Deocampo harrassed me about my last report
Looks like I'm going to be rewriting again
And the baby thesis paper assignment is pratically cultivating a panic disorder in me
Too much pressure these days
I cannot handle it
I am slowly breaking
But I am trying
Shaking on the outside, barely breathing, but not giving up
Not yet, not now
I will survive
Somehow
Someone once told me this would be easy
To snap out of it
Get over it
Oh God
If only I could
If only it were that easy
I'm so glad I'm going to the Tanners tommorow
I need a hug despretly right now
And I always get an abundance of them over there
And, I'm really proud of myself for not cutting
Even I did almost cook myself in the process
Anyways, sleep now
SAT in the morning
Grr
Song of The Entry:
Leaving New York by R.E.M.
it's quiet now
and what it brings
is everything
comes calling back
a brilliant night
I'm still awake
I looked ahead
I'm sure I saw you there
you don't need me
to tell you now
that nothing can compare
you might have laughed if I told you
you might have hidden a frown.
you might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around.
it's easier to leave
than to be left behind
leaving was never my proud.
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
now life is sweet
and what it brings
I try to take
but loneliness
it wears me out
it lies in wait
and all not lost
still in my eye,
the shadow of necklace
across your thigh,
I might've lived my life in a
dream but I swear it.
this is real.
memory fuses
and shatters like glass,
mercurial future, forget the past
it's you
it's what I feel
you might have laughed if I told you
you might have hidden a frown.
you might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around.
it's easier to leave
than to be left behind
leaving was never my proud.
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
you find it in your heart,
it's pulling me apart,
you find it in your heart, change
I told you, forever
I love you forever.
I told you i love you
I love you forever
you never, you never
you told me forever...
you might have laughed if I told you
you might have hidden a frown.
you might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around.
it's easier to leave
than to be left behind
leaving was never my proud.
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading ou
I am a bit calmer now
Much thanks to Kelly, for listening to me bitch and moan
As well as Alanna and Erin
I <3333 you all muchly
Stress got to me I guess
Or something
Dr. Deocampo harrassed me about my last report
Looks like I'm going to be rewriting again
And the baby thesis paper assignment is pratically cultivating a panic disorder in me
Too much pressure these days
I cannot handle it
I am slowly breaking
But I am trying
Shaking on the outside, barely breathing, but not giving up
Not yet, not now
I will survive
Somehow
Someone once told me this would be easy
To snap out of it
Get over it
Oh God
If only I could
If only it were that easy
I'm so glad I'm going to the Tanners tommorow
I need a hug despretly right now
And I always get an abundance of them over there
And, I'm really proud of myself for not cutting
Even I did almost cook myself in the process
Anyways, sleep now
SAT in the morning
Grr
Song of The Entry:
Leaving New York by R.E.M.
it's quiet now
and what it brings
is everything
comes calling back
a brilliant night
I'm still awake
I looked ahead
I'm sure I saw you there
you don't need me
to tell you now
that nothing can compare
you might have laughed if I told you
you might have hidden a frown.
you might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around.
it's easier to leave
than to be left behind
leaving was never my proud.
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
now life is sweet
and what it brings
I try to take
but loneliness
it wears me out
it lies in wait
and all not lost
still in my eye,
the shadow of necklace
across your thigh,
I might've lived my life in a
dream but I swear it.
this is real.
memory fuses
and shatters like glass,
mercurial future, forget the past
it's you
it's what I feel
you might have laughed if I told you
you might have hidden a frown.
you might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around.
it's easier to leave
than to be left behind
leaving was never my proud.
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
you find it in your heart,
it's pulling me apart,
you find it in your heart, change
I told you, forever
I love you forever.
I told you i love you
I love you forever
you never, you never
you told me forever...
you might have laughed if I told you
you might have hidden a frown.
you might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around.
it's easier to leave
than to be left behind
leaving was never my proud.
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading out
leaving new york, never easy.
I saw the light fading ou