New Poem. Yay?

[desertions]

Peace
Ever have that feeling of the room moving but you stay still?
Everything’s spinning but you don’t move?
I feel that all the time now
The constant movement is making me sick
I might vomit over the floor
Or choke on my breath
I try to hold on as everything slips
But I guess I’m not trying hard enough
Cause it keeps drifting away
And I’m left in disgrace again
It seems like no matter how hard I try
I’ll just mess up
And I want it to end
I’m tired; I give up
I just want to sleep
I wonder how many pills it would take
To remain in slumber
And never see the light of day again
No I mustn’t think this way
It would be selfish to go through
Yet since when have I thought of someone other then myself?
I can’t remember to be honest, if I ever did that is
But I’m a coward
I’d never take that step even if I was desprete
So I stay shaking in my room
Crying and feeling sorry for myself
I don’t expect you to care anymore
Not even I care about me really
I just want an escape from myself
All I want is some peace