and just when you've given up on someone...

ok so i was talking to my friend josh

yeah the same one who bailed on me last year

who i wanted to kill myself over

he hadnt called in a long time

thought our friendship was over

then we have this conversation online today:

CuteBraChan: who's erica?
LaptopgunJosh: who isn't erica?
LaptopgunJosh: a friend
LaptopgunJosh: why?
LaptopgunJosh: hey, why have you been so down lately
CuteBraChan: curious you mentioned her in your buddy info and i was wondering who she was
CuteBraChan: what do you mean ive been down?
LaptopgunJosh: like I've seen your away messages and junks and they sounded suicidal n stuffs...I dont want you to hurt yourself
CuteBraChan: most of them are just song lyrics...
LaptopgunJosh: really?
LaptopgunJosh: are you telling me the truth? no foolin?
CuteBraChan: why would i lie?
LaptopgunJosh: i dunno you tell me

and here i thought he had forgotten me

shit im so confused now...

and i thought i was over him...

and just when you've given up on someone...

ok so i was talking to my friend josh

yeah the same one who bailed on me last year

who i wanted to kill myself over

he hadnt called in a long time

thought our friendship was over

then we have this conversation online today:

CuteBraChan: who's erica?
LaptopgunJosh: who isn't erica?
LaptopgunJosh: a friend
LaptopgunJosh: why?
LaptopgunJosh: hey, why have you been so down lately
CuteBraChan: curious you mentioned her in your buddy info and i was wondering who she was
CuteBraChan: what do you mean ive been down?
LaptopgunJosh: like I've seen your away messages and junks and they sounded suicidal n stuffs...I dont want you to hurt yourself
CuteBraChan: most of them are just song lyrics...
LaptopgunJosh: really?
LaptopgunJosh: are you telling me the truth? no foolin?
CuteBraChan: why would i lie?
LaptopgunJosh: i dunno you tell me

and here i thought he had forgotten me

shit im so confused now...

and i thought i was over him...

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Well its almost the one year anniversy of my suicide attempt...

And ive been feeling pretty suicidal lately too...

and just when i think josh has forgotten me and i start getting over him...

he instant messeges me saying how worried he is...

after reading all my away messeges and stuff

he's afriad i'll hurt myself

which is pretty legit i suppose...

(no subject)

well here's an interesting quiz:


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Sounds like me eh chibi rini chan?

And im still confused about that whole josh thing...