When I'm Queen They All Will See The Patron Saint Of Self Injury

Well after three weeks of not cutting...I broke down and cut again...
here's the skinny
ok first i was annoyed because i couldnt get my classes fixed cause me being the idiot i am forgot to bring in my forms...
ok flash forward to when my cousins come home from work
both marla and holly start demanding i do shit like im some fucking slave. and me and holly got in a bad argument...which was of course, all my fault... So as my eyes were stung with tears i grabbed my shoes and went running, trying to shake off the triggering feeling i was having since no one was leaving me alone in my room, i tried locking the door, but they wouldnt let me...i bet they figured i would cut..
so then i come back and now that i was a bit calmer i tried talking things out with holly, hell i even apoloigized, but she got mad at me cause i couldnt stay still, and then i snapped, and she called my apology shit...
so i ran into my grandma's room, got a blade, and cut...
so much for recovery...