Since I Was Born I Started to Decay...

My friend Meagen called me today, so upset she was almost in tears...
I was able to cheer her up..
but now I feel down...
I'm tired of always having the more crappy life
the one that makes everyone else realize "Hey it's not so bad, Katie has it worse"
I don't want to have it worse...
I'm so fucking tired of this shit...
I feel like I've been decaying for so long...
And I don't even remember what alive is like...