Thinking bout forever, missing you

I don't want to feel this...
my therapist was going on about how ive pushed these hurts down, and my sister slapping me triggered them and how its a GOOD thing

like hell it's good

and even if it is...

I still don't want it,

I just want to be numb

it's easier not to feel...

and I know, I'm just complaining 'bout the same crap over and over, but bear with me,

I'm going through some deep shit...
so just listen to my whining for a little longer