Nausea...Bloody Red Eyes Go To...Nausea

Ugh...I just got out of the bath
I started shaking in there and I could barely pull myself out to barf in the toliet. Then I stumbled back to my room, clutching my towel, shivering...I feel so ill...I want to stay home tommorow, but if I do then I'll miss group again and I haven't gone since like the beginning of Decemeber...and I missed theraphy today...but at the same time, part of me doesn't care all that much...I just want to curl in bed and wait for this all to just go away. My uncle says it's because I'm not on a mood stabilizer right now..and maybe it is..but it's bad enough that I have to rely on those things to keep me mentally well...I wish it wouldn't fuck with my physical health as well, because as mygrandma keeps pointing out, my grades are suffering
And yet...part of me still doesn't care
Okay...I'll stop this bitching rant now...