Send A Smile Over To You..

Nothing much happened today
My monologue went well, even though I forgot a costume
Got an Evangelion Doujinshi from Chibi Rini Chan (I love you deary!) along with a Borders gift card
Had a good talk with Rachel after school today just about stuff
And...
My muse is back!
Kinda...
Enough to write a new crappy poem

Adjust
I'm not used to this
This feeling that stirs within my stomach when we talk
I'm used to everything being repressed
I'm not sure how to act
How was I to know you'd feel the same,
When no one ever does?
I'm sure in time my nerves will ease
And I won't panic when we touch
I can learn to adjust to this
Though right now it seems almost impossible
These feelings are new, terrifying, and different
So just give me time to adjust
I don't need long
Just enough to kill old habits
Like that gnawing in my stomach
And the lump in my throat
I hate being so nervous and awkward
So I hope to soon adjust

Lalalala....

I Tell You That I'll Always Want You Near

So some of the stuff I've been thinking about alot lately has been about my Dad and my Grandpa, as it usually does preoccupies me around this time of year. As opposed to the rest of the year? Bleh...anyways...I was listening to one of my favorite Tori Amos songs, and it just seemed fitting for these feelings...

( Winter By Tori Amos )

If you have never heard it, download it, it is beyond beautiful, as all her stuff is...