I Want To Shut The Door And Open Up My Mind

I'm back from Hawaii!
But tommorow I leave again for Michigan, and then San Fransisco
So I'll be gone for about another two weeks or so
Hawaii was nice
Spent alot of time at the beach, got sunburned (I'm peeling now! Blech!), surfed (I actually got up on the board!), snorkled (perty fishies!)and a bunch of other stuff
Got into some intense arguments with my cousin Alexis though. At least twice I ended up going on a walk after arguinging with her and crying in front of some waterfall.
Figures
Only I would be so melodramatic while in Hawaii


Anyways, that's a vague discription of what's been going on, I frankly don't have the energy to go into much detail

In some ways, I'm kinda glad to be going away again so soon, even if this all did get planeed pretty last minute
I miss my friends and stuff, and Mitchell too...
But the thing is, part of me kinda doesn't want to see him right now
I mean, I've been doing alot of thinking about our relationship, and my heart is so confused right now that...
I dunno...

I like him alot. I mean more then I've proabably liked anyone, even Josh(No, not Mitchell's brother Josh...) ....

But sometimes, I feel like he doesn't even notice I exist. He's getting better at talking with me when I'm around and stuff, but still, it's not as good as it could be, and he never calls. It seems like I'm always the one calling him. He pays attention to me well enough when we're alone and stuff. But....I just don't know. I'm not used to this stuff. It makes me nervous. And kinda sick to my stomach. Which may be partly why my stomach's been acting up so much lately

Oy. Have I been overthinking things again?
Probably...

Anyways, advice would be nice, or something. I dunno. I should be able to check my email for replies, so any feedback would be nice

Anyways, I'm being shoved to bed now
So...later days, or something....