I Can't Stay Away From You....

Where did I leave off?
Eh, I dunno, but I know where to pick up, so I suppose that'll have to do
New Years Eve:
Plans were kinda all over the place for a while, but this is what ended up happening
First me and Rachel were out in the rain, catching a bus to Old Town Pasadena
When we got there we met up with Meagen and Beth
We ate at Johnny Rocket's and then when to see Ocean's Twelve
What an awesome movie, by the way
So hilarious, in some ways, it was almost better then the first
Then we miandered around Barnes and Noble a bit where I used the gift card I got from Zach
I bought Pandora by Anne Rice and a bar of Godvia Chocolate.
Books and chocolate, what more could you want?
After that we rushed home where we were picked up by Alex
After quickly getting my stuff together we were on our ways to the Tanners
Out of the three parties I was invited to, I was glad I choose that one
It was fun, and not too chaotic either
I spent alot of the time talking to Mitchell and this girl I had just met, Amanda (Who was also the one I got the Secret Santa gift for)

Speaking of secret santa.....
Jasmine is the coolest secret santa ever!
Wanna know why?
She got me Rasputina's How We Quit The Forest CD!
Why is that so awesome?
Because it's an undergrown out of print CD that's damn near impossible to find
But me writing on my wishlist good luck finding it was apparently taken as a challenge
And Jasmine met it with flying colors
So, so awesome!
She also got me some happy bunny pants (They say your anger makes me happy just like the slippers Christina got me!) and some black and pink socks
I was extremely pleased, so much infact that when I got the CD I let out a loud pitched scream of joy
I also made such a big deal about it that Mitchell had me play it for him just to see what the fuss is about XD

Oh, and we also played this movie trivia game in different groups, and my group (I was made a leader as I'm such a movie buff) was Me, Jasmine, Mitchell, Tyler, and Helen
And we won!
Mitchell was our lucky dice roller
And at Midnight we each got our own bottle of apple cider to drink
And we had a Sailor Moon Stars marathon
and alot of other stuff that I'm blanking out on now
All I know it was very cool and I wish I hadn't had to leave so early this morning

So, we didn't get into the mantinee of Les Miserables(play), which kinda sucked
But instead of going how we went to a movie theater and saw Phantom of the Opera(movie), which kicked ass
Afterwards we went back for the evening showing of Les Miserables and scalped some tickets off people and actually got to see it!
So awesome!
I could go on either a Phantom and/or Les Miserables rant, but for the sake of time, I shall not

Lately though, it seems like my hearts being pulled in alot of places
There are alot of people I sorta have feelings for and I don't know where any of it is going
I mean, I'm almost postive none of them are interested, so I would never act out on it anyways
But sometimes, when they bring up the people they like or show interest in other people I feel this dull pain in my stomach
Why am I always the friend?
Why am I never the one people are interested in?
Is the role I'm supposed to forever play, the good friend, who's loved but not the girl you'd fall in love with?

What's sorta ironically funny is I'm fairly obvious with my crushes, yet they don't seem to notice

Man, now I think I know why I sympathized with Ephine so much

Anyways, I have to do homework and stuff tommorow so I better call this off now and got to sleep

Maybe sometime tommorow I'll fill out that 2004 meme thing

....

Maybe

Song of the Entry:

Solitude by Evanescence

How many times have you told me you love her
As many times as I wanted to tell you the truth
How long have I stood here beside you
I lived through you, you looked through me

Solitude
Still with me is only you
Solitude
I can't stay away from you

How many times have I done this to myself
How long will it take before I see
When will this hole in my heart be mended
Who now is left alone but me

Solitude
Forever me and forever you
Solitude
Only you, Only true
Everyone leaves me stranded
Forgotten, abandoned, left behind
I can't stay here another night

Your secret admirer, who could it be

Can't you you see all along it was me
How can you be so blind as to see right through me

Solitude
Still with me as only you
Solitude
I can't stay away from you

Solitude
Forever me and forever you
Solitude
Only you, only true