Wheels I Guess Are Turning Somewhere Inside My Head

Sleepiness...
It takes over my soul, sorta
Forgot to take the sleeping pills tonight
Oh well, don't have school tommorow anyways
So I suppose it doesn't matter much anyways
Finals went okay I suppose
English: Okay, didn't finish the last essay though
Trig: EVIL Seriously, think I flunked that one
Religion: Alot easier then expected, didn't finish the last essay
Pysch: Funny actually. And I got in some extra credit
Gov: Evil, evil fill ins

So that's what's been most occupying me the past few days
New semester starts monday
Got switched out of Honors English
Kind of dissapointed in myself
But you have to do what you need to do

Had a family session today
My theraphist kept pushing me to talk even though I felt uncomfortable
But I guess I just don't know how to talk about that stuff
Espically with Uncle Matt

I always feel like he has this image of me in his head
Of how I should be
And I can never be that
I can never be these things that they all want me to be

And I think I'm becoming okay with that
Cause when I try to be who they want I'm not being me

I don't know who me is, yet
But I'll find out
And until then, I'll still be okay

I guess in a way, I always was

Song of the Entry:

Finding Me by Vertical Horizon

I don't think you notice
When you see my face
I guess you're waiting
To spin me around again

Wheels I guess are turning
Somewhere inside my head
I know that this is
Deeper than you get

But you're coming back again
You don't mean to waste my time
But you're coming back so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me

I've already given
Up on getting through
I never question
Who I'm talking to

Oh so much for nothing
But nothing means so much
I know it's touching
But I've been out of touch

And it's all that I can do
I'm a sight for my sore eyes
But it's all I am so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me

I don't think you notice
When I can't reach out
I guess you're waiting
On somebody else again

Oh so much for talking
It's all been said before
I'm hearing something
but I wish you'd just say more

But you're going off again
When I try to just hold on
But you're going off so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me