It's A Long Way Home, I've Been Searching For A Long Time

You know, I never thought this would be happening
I never thought I would start to feel sad about graduating
It's common knowledge, I don't like my school much
How many times have I complained about Holy Hellhole?
Millions
And yet part of me is really sad about the idea of leaving it
Well, maybe not leaving school as much as leaving this chapter of my life
High school has actually had a bigger effect on me then I think I ever expected it to
I was so unhealthy when I was a freshman
I was so angry and depressed and lonely
I remember sitting alone, near a group of people at lunch, but not belonging
And then one day I spotted a girl reading the Fellowship of the Rings book
I immeadetly started talking to her, and little did I know, she would become one of my best friends, Biz
Making friends after that wasn't too hard
And while the people I've hung out with have varied year to year, I've always had friends since then
For once in my life I had an abundance of friends
I think more than anything, this helped me
I finally had a place to belong
And I was no longer afraid to be me
I realized that me was someone people could like
And slowly, many of my masks began to fall
And while things haven't always gone to plan
I'm not so afraid now
A few months ago I was paniking
I didn't know what to do
Things had fallen apart
My grades were at all time low
I was an emotional wreck
I thought my life was ruined
Espically cause I wouldn't be able to go straight to a four year college
I realize now that this was wrong
So it wasn't the route I planned on taking...
Doesn't mean it's a bad one
I'm ready to step out in the world, and face the challenges that lie ahead
I know I still have alot of growing up to do, but I think I can handle it
I only hope college will help me grow the way high school did
I'm going to miss the people I met, but I know it's time to go
I guess everyone feels this ambivelence around this time of year
Everything feels so final
Guess I just gotta remember it's not

Song of the Entry:

Winding Road by Bonnie Somerville

Well, the rain keeps on coming down
It feels like a flood in my head
And that road keeps on calling me
Screaming to everything lying ahead

And it's a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
I still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
I still have hope
I'm gonna find my way home

And I can see a little house
On top of the hill
And I can smell the ocean
The salt in the air
And I can see you
You're standing there
And you're washing your car
And I can see California sun in your hair

And its a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
Still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
I'm gonna find my way home

All these dreams took me so far
And I felt I just couldn't go on
And I want to hang
Out the window of your car
And see just how good this baby can run

'Cause it's a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
And I still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
We're gonna find our way home

It's a winding road
Still have hope
One day we'll find our way home
It's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
We're gonna find our way home

It's a long way home
It's a long way home