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Tired and very thinky about things :o

Going back home today. Been at Suu's since the 30th.

So much win.

And so much tired.

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Been home for about five minutes after being gone for a few days and they're already ordering me around and such.
I'd say I was surprised, but I don't like to lie

Too Late, So Deep, Better Run (But I Don't Want To Fall In Love)

I should call Vincent and figure out when this week I should come over to hang out.


...So, one of the major things discussed often the past few days is the whole Vincent situation
In all likelihood, the boy probably does like me.
According to Suu and some others, it seems pretty obvious.
And yet, the idea of trying to do anything about it absolutely terrifies me
I'm not good at doing things that might actually make me happy.
I usually run from them, or wait until it's too late
I don't want to do that this time.
I want..it to be different.
But I don't know how.
All I know is how to mess things up
And I know it sounds silly, but I'm terrified of messing this up.

What if he gets to know me better, and discovers he doesn't like what he knows?
What if...what if...so many cynicisms running in my head.
I just want to shut this off.
It shouldn't be this hard.