And I Hate It, This Riot

I got called a cunt for the very first time tonight.
For just talking.
It's a little anticlimatic, somehow.
Alexis is one of my more special cousins, that's to be sure

They god we caught that connecting flight.
If we had taken that car trip home, I think I would have killed someone.

Also? After four days of dealing with real life, family drama? Internet drama? I'm just laughing and shaking my head. That's right, I'm lookin' at YOU.

It Fits, One Way Or Another

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You cant keep awake

May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you

cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You

I dont know anymore
What its for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what its for
Any more than me

May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you

I Hope You Hang Yourself With Your H&M Scarf

Fuck you insurance, what are these "other" claims I was supposed to fill out?
Cutting off the payments for my therapy sessions without giving me a warning?
That's a bitch move right there.


Whatever. I'm going to go watch Heroes and try to forget about this fiasco :|

Somehow Doubt We'll Ever Be The Same

Wtf Heroes :| I just...yeah. That episode was crazy. I hope for some good resolution next week. But I'll probably just get 42 new questions and no god damn answers.

Tired, and after no sleep last night and the super temper rage that preceded the no sleep, perhaps I should head off to bed soon. At least I've been able to touch base with a few people and smooth things over. Or something. I dunno.

Two finals this week. Hello there anxiety, cause you weren't strong enough right now.

Bleh, have a meme.

1. Put your music player on shuffle
2. The first lines of twenty songs = a poem; the first line of the twenty-first song is the title.

I'm Losing My Hair and My Vision is Shady

I think it's getting to the point where I can be myself again
You're a part time lover and a full time friend
Lately I swear there's something crawling on my skin
Like anyone worthy I am flattered by your fascination with me

Memories are just where you need them
Don't look at me now
Sick of trying to find a way inside
I just don't care anymore

When the horses come to drag me away
When you're feeling all wrong in the back of your mind again
I need a catalyst to rekindle the flame
One jump ahead of the breadline

Won't you come with me to a place that's real
So lately been wondering who will be there to take my place
No one's picking up the phone
You know it ain't easy for these thoughts to leave me

Wonder how you sleep
We were tight but it falls apart as silver turns to blue
Oh honey, honey, what have you done?
Whenever I'm alone with you


That's just...special :| I don't even know