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desertions) wrote2005-04-18 02:09 am
desertions) wrote2005-04-18 02:09 am
I Need A Little Room To Breath Cause I'm One Step Closer To The Edge
I don't remember the last time I got this upset
I don't remember the last time it got this bad
I was shaking, hyperventilating it was so bad
I almost walked out of the house, with no clue where I would go
I feel so fed up
It took almost two hours on the phone with Meagen to calm me down
Okay, let's start at the beginning
My grandma had been critcizing and picking at me all day
I did everything she told me too, and she kept finding more wrong
Finally, I snapped and it led into a big fight
She was going on about how she had to take care of everything
How I had no way to keep my own life together
And how I was basic favor
She's been going on for this for like a week
As soon as I started feeling better she got even worse then she was before
I almost hit her I was so pissed off
And then she wouldn't leave my room
I was shaking, demanding her to leave, and she wouldn't
Why?
Because I might cut, even though it's been over a year since the last time
What finally got her out was when I walked to the front door and threatened to walk out and not come back
I would of done it too
But she seemed to hesistate for a moment
So I walked back to my room and locked myself in
At this point I was hyperventilating and could barely see straight
I got online just long enough to tell Meagen to turn her phone on
Luckily, talking to her calmed me a down a little
So did rping with Susan, just having something to do was good
Seriously, I think I met my limit
I can't live here much longer
It was nice of Marla to come in and check on me though
Nice to know someone in my family gives a fuck how I feel
And this is the condensed version of what happened
Even now, I still feel sick from being so upset
Song of the Entry:
1stp Klosr by Linkin Park featuring Johnathan Davis (remix of One Step Closer)
I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I’m about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I’ve said before
All these words, they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You’ll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren’t so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts, they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before
Everything you say to me
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I’m about to break
These are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I’m about to break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
Shut up when I’m talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I’m talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to
I don't remember the last time it got this bad
I was shaking, hyperventilating it was so bad
I almost walked out of the house, with no clue where I would go
I feel so fed up
It took almost two hours on the phone with Meagen to calm me down
Okay, let's start at the beginning
My grandma had been critcizing and picking at me all day
I did everything she told me too, and she kept finding more wrong
Finally, I snapped and it led into a big fight
She was going on about how she had to take care of everything
How I had no way to keep my own life together
And how I was basic favor
She's been going on for this for like a week
As soon as I started feeling better she got even worse then she was before
I almost hit her I was so pissed off
And then she wouldn't leave my room
I was shaking, demanding her to leave, and she wouldn't
Why?
Because I might cut, even though it's been over a year since the last time
What finally got her out was when I walked to the front door and threatened to walk out and not come back
I would of done it too
But she seemed to hesistate for a moment
So I walked back to my room and locked myself in
At this point I was hyperventilating and could barely see straight
I got online just long enough to tell Meagen to turn her phone on
Luckily, talking to her calmed me a down a little
So did rping with Susan, just having something to do was good
Seriously, I think I met my limit
I can't live here much longer
It was nice of Marla to come in and check on me though
Nice to know someone in my family gives a fuck how I feel
And this is the condensed version of what happened
Even now, I still feel sick from being so upset
Song of the Entry:
1stp Klosr by Linkin Park featuring Johnathan Davis (remix of One Step Closer)
I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I’m about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I’ve said before
All these words, they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You’ll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren’t so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts, they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before
Everything you say to me
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I’m about to break
These are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I’m about to break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
Shut up when I’m talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I’m talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to