A New Poem. Yay?

[desertions]

Reality
I find myself loosing control
What seemed real has begun to blur
My mind is a wreck again
Leaving me crying in the streets
I’m shaking, afraid to move
I don’t dare try to stand
Everything’s spinning
But I’m perfectly still
Everything’s changing
I remain the same
I need to be stronger
I can’t fall again
Yet the strength I had before has left me
I feel so weak inside
My resolve to fight has left
I want to give in, finally
I don’t fight the tears anymore
I don’t fight the voices
I just curl in my bed
Closing my eyes once more
Maybe when I open them
It’ll be okay
But this isn’t a dream
From which I can awaken
This is reality
And that’s the problem

This one was written based on my feelings after the severe panic attack I had yesterday, which was why I was so upset in the last few posts....