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[desertions]

Fuck i try to go to sleep, to escape all the mess that has become my life and what happens?
I start sobbing?
why?
i'm not even sure
everythings a mess
I'm a mess
i dont even know if i want to be put back together anymore...
it might be to hard
i just want to sleep
and not wake up
ever
is that bad?
do i even care at this point?