And All That Could Of Been- Nine Inch Nails

[desertions]

Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe I'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here
Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am
Tainted
The two of us
We're never meant to be
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Gone fading everything
And all that could have been
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
We're never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me

I should really stop listening to this song so much, but I can't. I keep trying to write a more detailed entry about the death and funeral stuff, but I still can't
I can't even write about the good stuff, it seems anymore
Maybe I'll never be able to

I'm afraid, one moment I'm okay, the next I feel like everything is hitting me at once. I'm tired, I'm just so sick of feeling loss